The dark night of the soul

You are completely free to choose to continue suffering in the dream of this world. You have created a drama in which you are the scriptwriter, director, and lead actor. And you will continue to suffer incarnation after incarnation until you tire of suffering. The ball bounces when it hits the ground.

You will shout, "Enough is enough! None of this makes sense to me. I don't know where I came from or where I'm going. I was born to die, and then what? What good has it done me to accumulate titles, riches, or friendships if I'm going to lose everything? I've achieved what I set out to do, and so what?"

With tears in your eyes, unease, and a terrible feeling of loneliness, you will feel a chill run through you, announcing that you have hit rock bottom. This is called the “dark night of the soul”, a breaking point in your life. It is a great opportunity to seek another path.

In this process of introspection, if you want, you can listen to the hopeful voice of the Holy Spirit whispering to you: “You are not alone. I am here with you. I have always been here. If you want, I can show you a new way of seeing things. It's up to you”.

And that is where you can open your mind and, with His guidance, begin to understand that suffering is exclusively yours and has nothing to do with what is happening on the outside (relationships and situations). Your unconscious guilt, which is the fuel of the ego, is the source of suffering. Your inner swamp harbors unhealed wounds. Its mud hides the Light of your Being.

Just as a small child is led by the hand, with the Holy Spirit you will walk through the movie of your life, pausing at the most painful scenes. Together you will visualize again what happened, but this time He will help you understand that the person who was against you did so because they were wrong, as they were prey to fear. In their own way, they were asking for Love.

And with this new vision, you may shed tears as you feel a great peace. Now you understand, as you have a new perception of the situation. This is the true forgiveness that A Course in Miracles speaks of. The miracle is to turn fear and resentment into Love. This is what inner healing consists of.

By freeing yourself from that fragment of unconscious guilt that made you suffer, more Light will emanate from within you as you remove a layer of the mud that covered it. You will feel a little more at peace. And the Holy Spirit will collapse time by removing from your past and future the situations you have created and will create related to that fragment of unconscious guilt. You had planned to attract relationships in order to project onto others that unconscious guilt that caused you to suffer.

You are now closer to your liberation from the chains of the ego. You have shortened the path you have left to enlightenment. It is that simple, but very costly due to the ego's resistance to disappearing and our psychic inertia from spending thousands of lives following the dictates of the ego.

When a thought of fear, judgment, criticism, or attack against another, or against yourself, comes to you, stop and remember that the Holy Spirit is at your side to give you a new perspective on the situation from the eyes of Love. Just say to Him mentally, “Holy Spirit, I want to see this in a different way,” and leave it in His hands.

Here we will never find peace, salvation, or love

"Like Sisyphus, we are all on a journey that leads to a sense of futility and depression. No matter how hard we try to achieve our goals, we will never manage to roll the rock to the other side of the mountain. Our failure means that here we will never find peace, salvation, or love; we will never find our home (...) Sisyphus is a figure from Greek mythology. He was condemned by the gods to push a rock up a mountain, only to have it roll back down when he neared the top, forcing Sisyphus to start his efforts all over again" (Kenneth Wapnick).

I believe that as we push the rock uphill (living in this world), we can feel that there is another way of seeing the path, through the eyes of Love, through true forgiveness. And that is precisely the way out of this cycle of reincarnation and suffering.
 
Sisyphus, who is ultimately all of us, has the opportunity to be happy here and now, even when we have to push the rock up the mountain, if we are able to change our perception.

Photo Wikipedia Sisyphus (Titian) 1548 

Trust, you are with me

The Father looks at us with His compassionate eyes and says:

"My dear child, do not worry, nothing is wrong, nor has anything ever been wrong. Your crazy idea of separation did not break our Unity, for Love cannot be divided. That thought lasted only a brief moment and has already been repaired. But you, my child, having all my power, created in that moment this crazy universe in which you believe you are living a dream of fear, suffering, and death. Trust, you are with me, singing the eternal melody of Love".